Kuroko Tetsuya | InvisibleKuroko Tetsuya | Invisible by yoshiina
You felt invisible.
It was like you were standing underneath a floor of glass, screaming and banging on it trying to get the attention of the rest of the world going about their lives without you. It was like no one could see you or hear you or even knows you're trapped there.
And just when you thought you couldn't sink any further, it was like someone had gripped you by the ankles and pulled you further down into a dark, bottomless shaft, leaving you to wonder if and when your fall will end. And as you look back to where you feel he is, where you know you need to return to, you can see him receding further into the distance; the proverbial light becoming dimmer and dimmer, while the shaft into which you are falling become deeper, darker, and all the more enveloping.
The darkness was filled with nothing but your own sadness and suffering, so when a dim light appeared somewhere in the distance, you couldn't stop your eyes widening in hope. You make the futile effort to climb back
Aomine Daiki | GoneAomine Daiki | Gone by yoshiina
Your legs felt weak, nauseous, even, and your heart hurt so much it felt like it was going to burst. Your breathing deepened, sounding as if each breath was scraping against your lungs in shallow, rapid successions. Your lips trembled with each outlet of air, the intake stuttering as it struggled to infiltrate your constricted throat and feed your heaving lungs and palpitating heart.
Please, God, no...
“We tried everything we could to save him but his injuries were too severe.” Your world started to crumble as their words pierced your heart. "We're sorry for your loss."
Every waking moment you shared with him crossed your mind and one by one the tears fell, staining your cheeks as you released a cry. The tears couldn't stop and all your regrets jumped out to you making guilt swell up in the pit of your stomach. The agony, the despair, the utter hopel
Kuroko Tetsuya | Why?Kuroko Tetsuya | Why? by yoshiina
Changing into loose fitting sweats and an old t-shirt, she folded her legs underneath her on the sofa. Kuroko slowly approached her, resting his hand on the crown of her head. "Are you... Are alright now?"
Eyes lacking of all life, she cast her gaze through the open window, looking at the moon which seemed bigger and brighter than it had ever before. At a loss for words, Kuroko kept quiet and watched her with clear blue eyes as she continued to stare outside. She tugged at her hairband before combing her hair back several times, causing the soft strands to fall over her face when she turned and dropped her head forward.
"No Tetsuya..." Her low voice is quiet and difficult to hear as she raises her eyes to meet his. "I'm not."
"It's okay." He said, offering a sad smile before taking a seat next to her. "Come here."
With her legs still folded, she leaned towards him until her face rested near the base of his ear, as if she was going to share a secret with him. She tilted her he
Kuroko Tetsuya | EnoughKuroko Tetsuya | Enough by yoshiina
As the winter deepened, the transparent clarity of your eyes seemed to increase. It was clarity that had nowhere to go. Sometimes you would lock your eyes on him for no apparent reason. You seemed to be searching for something and this gave him a strange, lonely, helpless sort of feeling.
Kuroko searched for the words to fill in the space. There was no way to convey his feelings, he simply didn't know how to. Aomine has long since left; leaving behind the battered woman he once claimed as his in the arms of his former teammate.
His warmth was not what you needed, but the warmth of someone else. Someone incapable in showing warmth at all. His heart wrenching, Kuroko knew he just wasn't enough.
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